Innermost feelings~

Its two more days, I gonna take my SPM results. Gosh!! Its killing me~! But how come I dont have any nervous and worried feels? Izzit someone forgot to remind me about it?? Lol... Or I'm nervous+scare+worry untill numb already? : (  Last time still saw those past SPM candidates back school take results. Just a twinkle of eyes, my turn to take the scary results...Xp

Hmm... How I gonna face it? How if I got an extremely bad results compare to my friends?? How if those aunties and uncle ask about it? Then what should I told them? How if I really get bad results and how would those peopleSsss look on me? What will they think of me? Will they look down on me? Its so horrible terrible.  : (

Dont you scare the feels like... People stare on you with a dissapointed face? Or even their heart was thinking, this fellow really USELESS~!! Especially those parents's friends, how if they teasing me all the time and make my parents no face? Omg~ I seriously cant withstand of it! : (  Damn it! I just dont wanna know my results can? Take it and burn it! Hahahahaha! ( Admit that I'm useless in everythings. )

This few days, something flash back make me think twice of it. I feel like everything goes wrong! How come like that? It shouldn't be like that. That's not what I hope to be. Every picture of my life showing in my mind just like movie. I saw back what I had done this few years. Fuyoh~ Abstract huh? Xp I wish time can reverse... Then I will treasure my time second by second. Lol... Eveythings went wrong and its not perfect at all, its called life. Alamak~ What I'm talking about? Siao~ Wake up Pearly Lim! xD

Well, went KDU college's open day on last Saturday. Err... Sorry that I still blur on my future! Xp I really dont know what to study now. I dont know how and what to do. Guide me please...Xp As parents say, I'm not allow to spend their money much if I cant manage to study what I want. Haiz... They suggest me choose an easier road to walk for my future. Lol... I just dont know how! How ah?!  Ish...
Lastly, I DONT KNOW HOW TO FACE PROBLEMS! God please help me to solve it! Lol~ : )